Especially in the third stage of Dynamic I feel as if I am going to die! Do
I really have to do it to the point of complete and utter exhaustion?
Whenever you are total a revolution takes place; a transformation begins in
It is then that you reach the boiling point; and only at the boiling
point does the water turn into steam. Then you cannot flow downward like
water; you can only rise upwards like vapor. Then your direction is not
downwards, it is upwards.
You have to drop laziness.
People come to me and say that the morning meditation is a bit
difficult. Six o’clock is too early. You do not understand what you are
If getting up at six in the morning is difficult, it will be much more
difficult and painful to step outside the mind.
If getting up at six in the morning is so difficult, how will you jump out
of the wheel of life? If you are not even prepared to drop the small habit
of sleeping late… for a day or two you may feel lazy. But you allow
laziness to win over you. It shows that you value your laziness more than
Somebody comes and complains that the four meditations you do during
the camp are too tiring: “Why can’t we only do two each day?” But then, why
do two? Forget about all four! If four meditations tire you, two will half
tire you, but you are bound to get tired. And I know if I say that two will
be all right, you will promptly return with the request to do only
one…because it is the same mind up to its old tricks. Even two meditations
will make you feel tired to some extent. If this is the way you approach
things then you will eventually become more and more lazy.
Effort is required for everything.
Remember, life is effort; death is rest.
If you want to be dead you need do nothing.
If you want to live you will have to do something. If you want to live
life to the fullest you will have to make a great effort.
If you want to attain the divine such small bits of efforts will not
do. Your whole life should turn into one gigantic effort. You must stake
everything that you have. If you hold back even a little bit of yourself,
then you will miss. You have to stake yourself totally; only then will you
That is why so few attain. The reason is nothing but laziness.
While doing the active meditations you are so very careful not to hurt
yourself or fall on somebody or tire yourself. Why do it all? Who asked you
to do it?
You are not clear within yourself, and that is the trouble. You live in
a haze where everything is foggy and misty. You are not even clear as to how
you came here and why. Somebody was coming and you just came along with
him…just to look at what was going on.
You have been pushed and pulled about like this for infinite lives, but
you will never reach your destination this way. You will never get there by
blind chance. You will not reach the destination accidentally. It requires a
well-directed effort. You reach the destination when all the currents in
your life flow in one direction. Destination is your concentrated will
power. As soon as you are fully resolved, your energy accumulates at
one point and your mind flows in a single stream. This energy within you is
unbounded. So if you feel that you do not have sufficient energy, you will
get tired very soon, you are mistaken.
There are three layers of energy in your body.
The uppermost layer is for day-to-day living; it is like the small
change you carry in your pocket. It is not all the money you have. It is
just the pocket money you use for minor expenses.
You use this for sitting, standing, walking, eating, sleeping and other
light jobs. This is your superficial energy, the small change in your purse.
When you start meditating, this energy is used up in no time at all, because
you are not accustomed to using it for meditation; this is a new activity.
Now, if you let this exhaustion govern you and you stop meditating you will
never be able to enter deeply into meditation. Take no notice of your
If you continue you will find that your persistence has tapped the
energy that lies at the second level.
You have often experienced this phenomenon. For example you are about
to go to bed at night. You are overcome with weariness, so sleepy that you
can barely keep your eyes open. Suddenly there is an alarm: your house has
caught fire! Can you sleep after that? Do you say, “I am sleepy?” Your sleep
vanishes totally. Sleep is the last thing on your mind! Where has all this
energy come from? What happened? You have broken through to your second
layer of energy, which is not a layer of your daily routine. That layer
breaks down. Now this flood of newly released energy makes sleep impossible.
If you persist in your meditation without giving up, you will discover
a second source of energy available to you before very long. Once you have
this energy at your disposal, then no matter how much you meditate your body
will never become tired. You will have something inexhaustible. This is the
There is also a third layer of energy.
This second source of energy is your treasure. It can be consumed, though
not as easily as the first. If you keep on making effort, ceaselessly, this
source of energy will also dry up, and the third layer will break loose.
This third source does not belong to you; it belongs to the divine, and it
never dries up. If you become lazy, however, you will not reach the second,
let alone the third. The divine is the supreme energy hidden in you.
The first layer is that of your mind; the second is that of your soul;
the third is of the divine.
Exhaust the mind and you attain the energy of the soul.
Exhaust the soul and you attain the energy of the divine, which is
eternal and inexhaustible. Then you are one with the whole. You have to keep
on trying until the third level of energy is reached, and you obtain the
supreme power. Then you are a siddha, one who has arrived. Then you can
Before that, any relaxation is suicidal.
Osho: “The Great Path”